Hi mom... its 5 years since u had to leave us, it still feels like yesterday, the pain is still as raw... i have just learnt to deal with it the best i can....you would be so proud of all your grandchildren, alishia is 15 now and im so proud of her, i see so much of you in her, hayden-leigh is just the opposite but i know she would of been the apple of your eye... every night i pray that you visit me in my dreams so i can hear your voice again.... i love you so much mom, not cried all day but the tears wont stop now so gonna have to sign off... sarah xxx 21st sept 2011